Reedle Откройте в мобильном приложении
Понятно
Понятно
Для того чтобы воспользоваться закладками, необходимо
Войти или зарегистрироваться
Отмена
Для того чтобы воспользоваться озвучкой предложений, необходимо
Войти или зарегистрироваться
Отмена
Озвучка предложений доступна при наличии PRO-доступа
Купить PRO-доступ
Отмена
"
Yes
,
I
wanted
you
,
but
I
wasn
t
really
making
love
to
you
.
I
was
going
to
use
you
in
a
way
but
I
can
t
ex
­
plain
.
I
don
t
understand
it
myself
.
Let
s
just
say
I
m
not
ready
yet
.
And
I
can
t
fake
it
or
cheat
or
pretend
it
s
all
right
when
it
s
not
.
It
s
just
another
blind
alley
.
"
I
got
up
to
go
.
"
Charlie
,
don
t
run
away
again
.
"
Отключить рекламу
"
I
m
through
running
.
I
ve
got
work
to
do
.
Tell
them
I
ll
be
back
to
the
lab
in
a
few
days
as
soon
as
I
get
con
­
trol
of
myself
.
"
I
left
the
apartment
in
a
frenzy
.
Downstairs
,
in
front
of
the
building
,
I
stood
,
not
knowing
which
way
to
go
.
No
matter
which
path
I
took
I
got
a
shock
that
meant
another
mistake
.
Every
path
was
blocked
.
But
,
God
.
.
.
everything
I
did
,
everywhere
I
turned
,
doors
were
closed
to
me
.
There
was
no
place
to
enter
.
No
street
,
no
room
,
no
woman
.
Finally
,
I
stumbled
down
into
the
subway
and
took
it
down
to
Forty
-
ninth
Street
.
Not
many
people
,
but
there
was
a
blonde
with
long
hair
who
reminded
me
of
Fay
.
Отключить рекламу
Heading
toward
the
crosstown
bus
,
I
passed
a
liquor
store
,
and
without
thinking
about
it
,
I
went
in
and
bought
a
fifth
of
gin
.
While
I
waited
for
the
bus
,
I
opened
the
bottle
in
the
bag
as
I
had
seen
bums
do
,
and
I
took
a
long
,
deep
drink
.
It
burned
all
the
way
down
,
but
it
felt
good
.
I
took
another
just
a
sip
and
by
the
time
the
bus
came
,
I
was
bathed
in
a
powerful
tingling
sensation
.
I
didn
t
take
any
more
.
I
didn
t
want
to
get
drunk
now
.
When
I
got
to
the
apartment
,
I
knocked
at
Fay
s
door
.
There
was
no
answer
.
I
opened
the
door
and
looked
in
.
She
hadn
t
come
in
yet
,
but
all
the
lights
were
on
in
the
place
.
She
didn
t
give
a
damn
about
anything
.
Why
couldn
t
I
be
that
way
?
I
went
to
my
own
place
to
wait
.
I
undressed
,
took
a
shower
and
put
on
a
robe
.
I
prayed
that
this
wouldn
t
be
one
of
the
nights
that
someone
came
home
with
her
.