Reedle Откройте в мобильном приложении
Понятно
Понятно
Для того чтобы воспользоваться закладками, необходимо
Войти или зарегистрироваться
Отмена
Для того чтобы воспользоваться озвучкой предложений, необходимо
Войти или зарегистрироваться
Отмена
Озвучка предложений доступна при наличии PRO-доступа
Купить PRO-доступ
Отмена
11
So
,
to
return
,
I
say
,
during
the
ages
of
three
and
four
and
five
,
I
was
not
yet
I.
I
was
merely
becoming
as
I
took
form
in
the
mould
of
my
body
,
and
all
the
mighty
,
indestructible
past
wrought
in
the
mixture
of
me
to
determine
what
the
form
of
that
becoming
would
be
.
It
was
not
my
voice
that
cried
out
in
the
night
in
fear
of
things
known
,
which
I
,
forsooth
,
did
not
and
could
not
know
.
The
same
with
my
childish
angers
,
my
loves
,
and
my
laughters
.
Other
voices
screamed
through
my
voice
,
the
voices
of
men
and
women
aforetime
,
of
all
shadowy
hosts
of
progenitors
.
12
And
the
snarl
of
my
anger
was
blended
with
the
snarls
of
beasts
more
ancient
than
the
mountains
,
and
the
vocal
madness
of
my
child
hysteria
,
with
all
the
red
of
its
wrath
,
was
chorded
with
the
insensate
,
stupid
cries
of
beasts
pre-Adamic
and
progeologic
in
time
.
13
And
there
the
secret
is
out
.
The
red
wrath
!
It
has
undone
me
in
this
,
my
present
life
.
Because
of
it
,
a
few
short
weeks
hence
,
I
shall
be
led
from
this
cell
to
a
high
place
with
unstable
flooring
,
graced
above
by
a
well-stretched
rope
;
and
there
they
will
hang
me
by
the
neck
until
I
am
dead
.
The
red
wrath
always
has
undone
me
in
all
my
lives
;
for
the
red
wrath
is
my
disastrous
catastrophic
heritage
from
the
time
of
the
slimy
things
ere
the
world
was
prime
.
Отключить рекламу
14
*
*
*
*
*
15
It
is
time
that
I
introduce
myself
.
I
am
neither
fool
nor
lunatic
.
I
want
you
to
know
that
,
in
order
that
you
will
believe
the
things
I
shall
tell
you
.
I
am
Darrell
Standing
.
Some
few
of
you
who
read
this
will
know
me
immediately
.
But
to
the
majority
,
who
are
bound
to
be
strangers
,
let
me
exposit
myself
.
Eight
years
ago
I
was
Professor
of
Agronomics
in
the
College
of
Agriculture
of
the
University
of
California
.
Eight
years
ago
the
sleepy
little
university
town
of
Berkeley
was
shocked
by
the
murder
of
Professor
Haskell
in
one
of
the
laboratories
of
the
Mining
Building
.
Darrell
Standing
was
the
murderer
.
16
I
am
Darrell
Standing
.
I
was
caught
red-handed
.
17
Now
the
right
and
the
wrong
of
this
affair
with
Professor
Haskell
I
shall
not
discuss
.
It
was
purely
a
private
matter
.
The
point
is
,
that
in
a
surge
of
anger
,
obsessed
by
that
catastrophic
red
wrath
that
has
cursed
me
down
the
ages
,
I
killed
my
fellow
professor
.
The
court
records
show
that
I
did
;
and
,
for
once
,
I
agree
with
the
court
records
.
Отключить рекламу
18
No
;
I
am
not
to
be
hanged
for
his
murder
.
I
received
a
life-sentence
for
my
punishment
.
I
was
thirty-six
years
of
age
at
the
time
.
I
am
now
forty-four
years
old
.
I
have
spent
the
eight
intervening
years
in
the
California
State
Prison
of
San
Quentin
.
Five
of
these
years
I
spent
in
the
dark
.
Solitary
confinement
,
they
call
it
.
Men
who
endure
it
,
call
it
living
death
.
But
through
these
five
years
of
death-in-life
I
managed
to
attain
freedom
such
as
few
men
have
ever
known
.
Closest-confined
of
prisoners
,
not
only
did
I
range
the
world
,
but
I
ranged
time
.
They
who
immured
me
for
petty
years
gave
to
me
,
all
unwittingly
,
the
largess
of
centuries
.
Truly
,
thanks
to
Ed
Morrell
,
I
have
had
five
years
of
star-roving
.
But
Ed
Morrell
is
another
story
.
I
shall
tell
you
about
him
a
little
later
.
I
have
so
much
to
tell
I
scarce
know
how
to
begin
.
19
Well
,
a
beginning
.
I
was
born
on
a
quarter-section
in
Minnesota
.
My
mother
was
the
daughter
of
an
immigrant
Swede
.
Her
name
was
Hilda
Tonnesson
.
My
father
was
Chauncey
Standing
,
of
old
American
stock
.
20
He
traced
back
to
Alfred
Standing
,
an
indentured
servant
,
or
slave
if
you
please
,
who
was
transported
from
England
to
the
Virginia
plantations
in
the
days
that
were
even
old
when
the
youthful
Washington
went
a-surveying
in
the
Pennsylvania
wilderness
.